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A spirit of the deep

Posted by Ivar at 8:59 PM
Wednesday, July 1st in the 9th year of the King's reign
Ivar, Uncle, imprisoned, the shadow

W hat becomes of the soul left in darkness? Does it wither to a shade, a delirious, wasted spirit joined to a forever midnight, like a spirit of the dead joined to an old ash tree?

What will become of me?

My rat friend has dropped his playing. He no longer nips at my feet. Instead, he bites at places less easy to defend. The backs of my legs. The meaty part of my arm, just below the shoulder. I hope to dissuade him with half of my meal, which will come soon. It is only coarse and smelly bread, anyway.

When I do find rest, it is in a fitful half-sleep. My dreams are vivid and often unpleasant. Shortly after my imprisonment, I began to feel a presence as I slumbered, but now I know that it is more than just a dream-thing. It is as if a deeper dark stands over me, like a shadow cast upward from some lowly sun. It’s not something I can see, for I can see nothing. But it’s there.

A dark place

Posted by Ivar at 5:04 AM
Sunday, June 21st in the 9th year of the King's reign
Fina, Ivar, Karl, Lady Reiling, Temilla, imprisoned

I t is dark here, and the floor leaches the heat from my body. My shoes have been taken, and my torn robe gives me little warmth. My manacles are heavy and the metal jagged with rust and long age. I share my cell with scraps of bone, and the nests and refuse of rats.

I never should have brought Fina to my father’s grave. That night, I ran until I was exhausted, and still pushed myself. Temilla gave me a potion and a salve, which I took to Fina. I waited by her side until morning, but even with the medicines, she did not wake from her slumber. Oh, how terrible was that waiting. But it was not as bad as here, where I not only worry over Fina’s fate, but my own as well.

It was shortly after sunrise that the duke’s men found us. They accused me of defiling her, both with magic, and by raping her. Spirits, I know how it must have looked. They beat me and dragged me back to the castle.

It is not easy to sleep. As soon as my eyes close, a touch on my foot or a rustle by my ear wakes me. I felt pinching teeth on my leg, as if one of the rats was teasing me. I kicked it, and felt the kick connect. It scrabbled, but my kick sent it out of my cubby and tumbling down the vertical shaft of the catacombs. It gained me a short respite.